I can't even begin to imagine the pain you must feel for the loss of your son as I have never suffered a loss.

I think it's a wonderful thing you have done for little Thomas by making this website as a tribute, reading your account of Thomas' short live brought many tears to me, I can't imagine how I would've of coped or gone on if this had happened to me and my little girl, it's wonderful that you can share your experiences.

Take care x

I am so sorry for your loss and want to thank you for creating this site. The poems you have included are beautiful and I know I will return here often.

Thanks Danielle

Riley (died aged 9 weeks)

For the loving parents of baby Thomas...

you are brave and strong. Thank you for acknowledging your son's life in such a beautiful way.

As a labor and delivery nurse (in the States) I have had the tragic honor of caring for stillborns, taking their pictures, and tenderly loving them in their briefness.

How I wish I could have been there for you, to help you memorialize your son through footprints and pictures...but you have forged through the additional loss of not having those things by creating this memorial so lovingly.

Maybe I will be able to do the same for my little Eric, born still Nov 30th, 2004. I was only 22 weeks, but I do have pictures.

Again, I commend you and have the utmost respect for the energy and love you have put into acknowledging your son's little life.

Sincerely,

Misha

You have created a wondeful site in memory of your beautiful angel son Thomas. Thank You so much for sharing him with me. I am so sorry that you have suffered so much heartache.

My daughter Grace was born asleep June 30th 2004 and I miss her so much.

Take Care Love Catherine

x x x

Mummy to Grace Aine June 30th 2004 Forever in Mummy's heart

Thank you very much for designing a site where families can find some solace.

I am sorry for the loss of your Thomas. I was sent the link to your web page by a support group. My angels are my little girl lost at 15 wks, and my darling Cole, stillborn at 28 wks. I haven't had a chance to read everything yet, but I definitely will, you have done an amazing job in remembering a precious little boy.

Take care, Tania

Hello.

Just to say I was very moved by your website dedicated to your son Thomas, my heart goes out to you and your family. My son Samuel was Sillborn on the 3rd of January 2002. I was 37 wks+ we found out on New Years Eve that he had died after a routine scan. I now have a 17 month old Daughter Ebony Chelsea but I never forget about Samuel and think about him all the time.

I believe your poem In a baby Castle was written by Doris Stokes Clairvoyant and Author after her son passed away. It was written in one of her books as the following:

In a baby castle just beyond my eye,
My baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who am I to wish him back, into this world of strife?
No - play on my baby, you have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes my eyes,
i'll here his tiny footsteps come running to my side.
His little hands caress me so tenderly and sweet,
i'll breathe a prayer and close my eyes and embrace him in my sleep.
Now I have a treasure that I rate above all other,
I have known true glory, I am still his mother.

I hope this helps.

Dearest Vicky,

Not only have you created a beautiful memorial here for your baby boy Thomas - but you have touched so many others who visit your site. I have spent many hours reading all the poems and looking through your memory pages and others dedicated to Thomas' brief life.

I don't think that you realise what you have achieved here, you have brought healing to so many women and families who have lost thier babies. You have provided us with a place of solace - where we can be sure that you have understanding of how painful this journey is.

Thankyou, thankyou from the bottom of my heart for helping me find some peace.

Much Love

Anne

xoxoxoxo

~ Mommy to Kayleigh - born still February 2005 @ 26 weeks ~

Just wanted to share with you my support group link and my new Web Design Graphic shop for pregnancy loss as well as other things. Also I am currently 17 weeks pregnant and everything is looking good so far, Terrified but holding on ok..
Take care hope u are well.
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Pregnancy Infant loss group

Dear Mr. & Mrs. Dixon

Your site is beautiful and a wonderful remembrance for your baby son, Thomas. I was able to find a suitable poem for some close friends who have just lost a baby girl, Madeline. She only lived a few hours and was such a longed for baby after several miscarriages. It just seems so unfair and makes me cherish my own children all the more.

Thank you again and keep up the good work. Your site must help a lot of people and is inspirational to others.

Love n sunshine Jo (UK) xxx

Dear Mr. and Mrs. Dixon,

I too lost a baby. What is different was I knew that my baby was ill but I didn't know how bad it was till he was born. I had him on the 16th Jan 2005 special delivery and I was so scared what was going to happened next until I hear him cry and then he was in so much pain and his heart stopped 3 times. The only way to stop him being in pain was to let him go, it was the most painful thing I have ever done. I named him Troy and he was 3 days old when he died. I love him so much. Now I am scared that if I have another baby, that baby may have the same illness that Troy had.

Thanks
Christina collard

Dear Mr. and Mrs. Dixon,

your courage and strength are amazing. I am so glad your faith has helped you get through such a devastating year. What a tremendous blessing your baby girl must be for you. May your faith and strength help others who have lost their children find their way.

Both of my children are with my husband and me. My daughter, Kyrie, is developmentally delayed without a medical diagnosis, and so far, my son appears perfectly normal. My spiritual healer and guide told me that Kyrie is a Far-away seed- this is her first time on earth. This means that she had a hard time learning to stay in the physical plane and was unsure if she wanted to stay or go home to Jesus. She has chosen to stay, and in her, I see the joy she brings to all that know her. I am told she will be a healer of children, and even though she doesn't talk or walk, I have seen her find the children who need healing and lay her hands upon them. I am sending you our thoughts of light and healing, and our prayers are with you.

Love, Jackie, Kyrie and Ryan

God Bless You All.
Kyrie - 3/31/02
Ryan- 10/25/04

Hi Darling,

Just been thinking about you and Thomas. Thinking about what you went through still makes me so awfully sad. You are such a strong wonderful person Vicky. I love you lots.

Miss you always.
Katy xx

Magnus and Vicky.

I was so sorry to hear about baby Thomas. Mum told me his funeral was so sad, but so lovely. She also says Milly is beautiful! Pete and I are expecting our first baby in July, and I can only imagine what you must have gone through.

Love Eilidh (Borland)

What a beautiful tribute to your baby boy...he must be looking down on you and being very proud of his mummy and daddy - I have lost 2 babies now and even though the 1st one went 3 yrs ago it still hurts me every day...xxxx

Edward Hunter Wall Stillborn on 12th January 2005

We miss you so much, life just doesn't seem fair at the moment forever in our hearts love you always

Mommy and Daddy XXX

I'm so very sorry to read about the loss of your darling son, Thomas. It must be terrible for you. Your website is a wonderful tribute to him - full of pride and love, which is how we all feel about our children.

I lost four babies to miscarriage, but cannot imagine what it must be like to lose a child towards the end of the pregnancy.

Wishing you blessings and happiness for the future. xxxx

Deeply touched by your story and poems, it'll be alright. xo

"God please have my guardian angel watch over me
and hold me close at night.
Have him whisper in my ear,
wipe my tears and make my world dissapear"

Hi folks.

Vicky knows who I am, having visited the website for our boys, and sent a message recently. I have tried reading some of your website, but I just find it far too poignant. Our boys have both survived so far, but we have had some extremely close calls.

I can't pretend to know how you feel, but we have had some very dark times, and I can truly sympathise. Your story is a profoundly sad one. I can only hope that you will receive some joyful compensation when you are reunited in heaven.

Great website by the way!

Dear Mr. & Mrs. Dixon,

I want to let you know how sorry I am for your great loss. Thomas is a lucky baby to have such parents who will obviously always adore him. I think we have to believe that one day we will be reunited with our loved ones again and that keeps us going.

I too had a stillborn baby. Ava, my daughter was born on 13th Oct. 2004 at 35 weeks gestation. My circumstances sound exactly the same as yours and so I was wondering if you would let me know what results you got, if any, on the reasons Thomas died? I know what you mean when you say you feel as though you somehow let him down. I also feel guilt but I think the medical profession are the ones lacking here and not us. They are afterall supposed to be the experts. We had an autopsy conducted on the advice of doctors because Ava also looked perfect and they could not say what had happened. The results showed that my placenta had stopped feeding her about 3 weeks prior to birth. I also had a visit to my G.P. at 34 weeks and was greatly reassured by a very strong heartbeat. However he did say I was smaller than he would have expected.

If he had sent me for a scan at that stage there is a strong likelyhood that she would be alive today. I was told by my consultant that if I was to get pregnant again they would do scans weekly from approx. 30th week and would see if the placenta was about to fail. I wonder if your situation was the same, as I would like to campaign for more scans to be conducted on all expectant mothers so that this terrible pain can be prevented in some cases. I have been trying to find out how common this is and can't seem to get any info. on it. I'd love to hear from you.

Again my deepest condolences for your loss.
Milly

I saw a message which you had posted on the M&B website which brought me here, I can't imagine what you went through, and still are going through, with the loss of your little boy. They are so precious. I have no doubts he will be looking down on you now knowing he was a special little boy who is loved even more each day.

Take Care & God Bless
Iona

I enjoyed visiting your site. You have my sympathies on your loss. We lost our son Joaquin on September 1, 2001, at 39 weeks gestation. Just this week, I miscarried a baby for the fourth time. So my five children await me in heaven, and my daughter here on earth becomes a bigger miracle as I ponder how she was ever brought to birth and life! I found a poem on your site that I have been looking for since Joaquin's death...I'm happy to have it finally.

Peace to you.

Dear Mr and Mrs Dixon,

I wish with all my heart that you get every wish that you both wish for, My deepest sympathy to the both of you and your families, Thomas will be so proud to have such loving parents. Again from the bottom of our hearts sorry life took life away from you. Take extra special care of each other.

Kerry and Rob m/c feb 17th 2004 and family

This is too weird to read this. I am a member of Silent Grief. You told me to look up your site for poetry for Jailyn's scrapbook. I haven't gotten that far yet because I was in shock, we found out the same day that we were pregnant (June 25th) and our due dates were the exact same. I lost Jailyn at 39 weeks. We think it was due to her having spina bifida but we are not sure yet. Thanks for telling me about your site! Hope all is well!!!!

I visited your website last year when I lost my baby at just 12 weeks. It is hard to believe how quickly time passes, your website is such a lovely tribute to your precious little boy. It is now that we are trying again for a baby, but it is so hard wondering if the same is going to happen again. I think you have all been so brave!

All my love, kerry.xx

I miscarried in January 05 but now I feel my pain is so insignificant after reading your story, (I know this won't help your feeling of loss or stop you hurting) but I am truly sorry for your loss of little Thomas, I think I may understand a little of the false insecurity you were given by getting past the first trimester only to be dissapointed in the most cruelest way imaginable, and having the knowledge that babies younger than Thomas have been born and survived.

Here is a poem that you may take comfort in.

In a baby castle not far beyond my eye,
my baby plays with angel toys money cannot buy.
Who am I to wish you back into this world of strife,
play on my child you have eternal life.

I hope this poem gives you comfort like it did with me. Once again I am truly sorry.

Sophie adams and isobelle lili (whom I lost at 9 weeks)

What a wonderful tribute to your little boy - I hope he has the fluffiest softest cloud to sleep on in heaven xxxx

11-02-1980 my life forever changed, after 3 days of hard labor my first daughter Jennifer was born....still....10 lbs. 11 oz. 23 1 \ 2" so perfect, so beautiful...time has a way of making the hurt somehow less...but not gone, and it never will be...after all this time I have found more comfort than I ever imagined by finding these special families who have also suffered the loss of a baby...oh, how I wish I had photos and momentos of my precious baby..25 years ago the advise to a mother who lost a baby was to move on and forget...my Jenn is buried with my forever favorite people, my parents and grandparents..be strong sweetheart....your child would want you happy...I do have two other children 21 and 23 yrs...and will be a grandma in two weeks....

Bless you! Karen

Dear Mr & Mrs Dixon,

I found this tribute to Thomas when I as reading one of your postings on the mother and baby website. I hope you do not mind me visiting this tribute page. I think you are so brave and strong and Thomas is so lucky to have a mother and father like you. He would be so proud of you.

I have just read your website and was truly touched by how beauthiful it is. I to lost a baby on New Years Day 2004 to Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome. Sophie's funeral was on 9th January too and as I read your website I feel as though I could of written it myself.

I fell pregnant soon after and gave birth to beautiful Poppy on 22nd November 2004 weighing 8lb 15oz. After reading about Thomas I somehow feel closer to you, sounds silly doesn't it?

Keep remembering Thomas as I will Sophie. Love to you all

Hello.

I was saddened to read your story, what a beautiful site you've created. We lost our baby boy last year, Peter, 17.04.04 @ 25 weeks. It's only 1 year on and we still have our good and bad days - believe me !!

I hope our special boys are friends in heaven.

Take care, love Mo xxx

I looked at your site and it was lovely, I lost a baby girl in January at 5 mths pregnant and know what you are going through, keep your chin up and know that Thomas is always with you.

I am a decendent of Thomas Dixon the American author! I just happened on your site and it touched me very much. I had a uncle Thomas Dixon Jr. And my Grandfather was Thomas Dixon! Aside from all the lie's you read about Thomas the author, he was a great American and better yet a Amazing person.

I have just read your beautiful story which was just what I needed to help me release months of grief I had been carrying for my baby which I miscarried at 10 weeks. It seems so pointless that we should have to go through these things in life and hurt so much and I'm sure I will never know why these things happen, I certainly can't seem to make sense of it.

I hope that you are drawing some comfort from the fact that your family are in so many peoples thoughts and hearts, thankyou so much for sharing your experience.

I'm thinking of you all, with love to baby Thomas, Lisa. xx

Your website for your baby boy, Thomas, is just beautiful. My daughter, Brenna Lynn, was stillborn 5 years ago this past Monday (May 23rd) at 36 wks..we believe from a nuchal cord, or compression of the cord, or perhaps both. It still hurts very much, but she makes me smile a lot with her little signs she gives me through little feathers I find in the oddest places to things my kids say to me that are just beyond what they should be saying...I believe it's Brenna whispering in their ears or something. :)

I had another little girl 18 mos after losing Brenna and she was my saving grace. She was very healing and a gift from Brenna. I also have a 7 year old and am newly pregnant due 1/17/06...and I thought it would be easier this time, but so far, I'm already very nervous and scared. I guess we just get through it. I haven't kept up with Brenna's website and yours is just beautiful.

Bless you and congrats on your little Milly, who must be 6 mos? Hugs Sara

Came upon your web site by chance. Just want to say how lovely it is, tears have rolled down my cheeks while I have been reading it. So many things I can relate to, we lost a baby, Roberto through different circumstances. I just wanted you to know you are all in our thoughts especially Thomas.

xxx

Your site is a real testament to the son you so tragically lost. We lost our son on 24th April 2005, he was 40 weeks and a few days and he died in labour. He was born with no heartbeat and died 1 hour 10 minutes later.

We are trying to get through the days as best we can, and find stories about other people in similar situations very helpful and supportive.

Thoughts and prayers to you, we love and miss our son so much, as you so clearly love and miss yours.

Best wishes, Andy, Sarah and our beautiful Jacob.

Dear Vicky and Magnus

I have just found baby Thomas website and wanted you to know what a great comfort it has been to read the poems you have posted. They are beautiful. We lost our little boy Dylan Steven, 6 weeks ago. He was stillborn on 18th April 2005 at 38 weeks. I read the poem beginning "in a baby castle" at his funeral.

People keep telling us how strong we are being, but it's not easy. We are heartbroken. But we know that Dylan is safe with God in Heaven with all the other little angels who were taken too soon.

Thank you again, I am sure what you hav01 June 2005 10:32:35 e done in creating this memorial to Thomas has comforted countless others like us.

Caroline Randle

Just wanted to say that this is a lovely page in memory of your wee boy, Thomas. I lost my son on 10/06/03, I was 19 weeks and 5 days pregnant, we were on holiday in Cyprus at the time. I was not allowed to see or hold Connor, all I have is my scan picture. But that was three years ago, and although you never forget, it does get easier.

Just remember, Heaven needs angels too and God only takes the best!!

Take care, Lorraine xx

You have a very nice memorial page for baby Thomas. I am sorry for your losses. I too have recently had a loss.

I'm so sorry for your loss. I had a m/c at 8 weeks. Your angel is playing up in Heaven with my angel.

I too have lost a beautiful baby boy at 33 weeks gestation due to maternal diabetes on October 13, 2003. I just wanted to let you know that our babies are playing together.

Both of you are in my thoughts and prayers

What a beautiful memorial to you son. I lost my precious little one on Decemeber 16th, 2004. He was stillborn at 35 weeks 5 days gestation due to a cord accident. We are heart broken by having to say good-bye much too soon to